Sad day

Today was such a terrible day. like a heart crushing, heart wrenching kind of day. i found out that my ex got married and honestly, i didn’t expect it to affect me this much. i’ve been trying to heal, and there are days when i genuinely feel happy and think that i’m finally okay. but today made me realize that maybe i’m not as okay as i thought i was. i guess some things still hurt, even when you thought you’ve already healed from them. ❤️‍🩹 i don’t even know how to recover from this pain. Lord, please take this pain away from me. i just want to move forward. i just want to finally be okay. ❤️‍🩹 i’m literally crying while writing and posting this, and maybe i just need to let myself feel it tonight. i hope someday i can look back at this post and realize that i finally recovered, i finally healed, and i no longer care. i hope by then, this pain will just be a memory of something i survived. ❤️‍🩹